人生的转折点

是时候学习了

2010-11-16T10:33:00.002+08:00

几天前，我才与我中六的数学老师聊天。
一如往常，她第一句问候的话：你的数学怎样了？
向来唠叨的她，这次并不让我觉得她烦了。。。

不知为什么，我就爱与她聊天，犹如亲人般的感觉~~~~
她还叫我回校探望她，因为她也要退休了。。。。
刹那间，我顿时感受到，我已离校快要一年了

我真的好怀念当时的一切
当时所面对的挫折、失意、沮丧，直到后来的坚强与积极
我并不是一人在面对~~~~~~

就是这一年，我虚度了。我荒废了。
以前老师欣赏的我，师弟师妹所仰慕的我，到底去了哪里？？
即使到了现在，从师弟师妹的口中还得知老师还用我作为他们的榜样~~~~~~
可现在的我~~~ 到底去了哪里？？？
我真的不能再这个样子了~~~~~

2011就要到了~~~~
去年我所定下的目标，全都失败。
我不想明年我又会是那个样子。

我想，我该是时候学习了......................

What song is this???

2010-11-10T10:49:00.002+08:00

Recently i found a special type of song, <忐忑>
this song is the most special song that i ever heard....
you can remember well the whole song by just listen the 1st time...
but u surely cant sing the song even u heard it many many times.....

quite amaze by the performance~~~

the link is given below >>>>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PuiLZHxYr78

Stomach upset~~~~

2010-11-06T00:37:00.002+08:00

AArrggghhh since i back from uni, I feel like Im a rubbish bin...
Watever trash i also throw inside my mouth......
Hmmm watever snacks bought back from China, own buy snacks, watever snacks i also put into my mouth.....

N 2day, it ate 3 super spicy meal from breakfaz till dinner.....
N guess wats the conclusion???

I m unwell.....
Discomfort in my stomach.....
AARRGGhhhh cant sleep~~~~

X.X

Holiday~~~

2010-11-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

Well after 4 months of being busy n super hectic life at uni,
Finally i finish my 1st semester.

Time flies,indeed.
I had changed, its true.
But 1 thing remains, I m still pessimistic.

Cant imagine how I suffered and gone thru during this 4 months.
Ya maybe sometimes its fun, and I had learn.
But still, I still being regret.

Well apart from that, I know I hav nothin to do, except continue till the end.

Hmmmm so holiday, what to do????
I wish I have a job and earn money.....

When busy time I complaint.
Till now when its free, I complain I m bored.
But now when I know there's camp for me, I rather I m bored.....

< Life >

又是一天

2010-10-06T04:27:00.002+08:00

真得不知不觉，我竟然在大学读了三个月~~
说真的，时间过得好快。
我在这里困了也三个多月，与世间的事情毫无联系~~~~

我真的读到好辛苦哦~~~
比较以前在中六求学的我，
现在的我，
时间完全不够用

4：32早上，我竟然还在麦当劳上网、“读书”~~~~~

难道，
这就是每个人所追求的大学生活吗？
我沉默不已~~~

闲人假期

2010-09-14T15:37:00.001+08:00

终于等到假期了

我真的感觉到假期了

一个闲人，假期无所事事

终日只顾着吃吃喝喝、睡睡醒醒

别无其他~~~~

但，欠打的我

竟然觉得假期太长了、想开学

因为太闷了

一切都结束了

2010-09-05T12:28:00.002+08:00

忙了一个月半
累了一个月半
颠了一个月半
一切都在昨晚结束了

其实，真的好怀念以前training的日子
虽然每天都半夜才可以回宿舍
可是相聚在一起的日子，我还蛮乐在其中。

言语不能描述一切
就让照片来作为美好时光的代表吧！

我很辛苦

2010-09-01T15:31:00.001+08:00

我有那么脆弱吗？？
为什么我会感到很辛苦呢？？
我真得受不了。。。。

尽管有几多人叫我不要放弃
尽管我很拼命的去挽回
我还是失去了很多。。。。

我也希望我不会放弃
可我真的很倦了

可以让我休息吗？？

我不断地反问我自己........

朋友

2010-08-28T08:50:00.002+08:00

每当我孤单的时候，我都必定想念家人、朋友。。。。
但是
有多少个朋友又会想念我呢？？？

我真的好久好久没有跟朋友联系了。。。。。
在那里的你，究竟好不好呢？？？
有变瘦吗？睡的好吗？吃的好吗？

朋友们，不管你们去到哪里？
一定要记得，你们还有一个朋友在这里~~~~~
好想好想你们~~~~~~

笑

2010-08-26T09:06:00.002+08:00

你有几久没笑了？
是真笑？敷衍的笑？还是看到别人笑而笑？

一向来，我都是被别人觉得我很爱笑
我一天不笑，难道我就有问题了吗？

你是否有想过，
硬硬挤出来的笑容，比不笑还来得可怕？

我自己都分不清楚，我几时是真的在笑？
而几时，我又不经意地把面具戴上了~~~~~

倘若

2010-08-23T13:20:00.002+08:00

我在冥想
倘若我现在躺在雪白上的沙滩，又多逍遥啊！！！

倘若不是现在
或许我正在吹着秋风，摘着一颗颗的红苹果。。。

倘若我能重生
我脸上的笑容或许是真的，更灿烂、更愚昧、更无厘头~~~~

倘若我不是我自己？？？

Speechless

2010-08-21T02:07:00.004+08:00

I know no matter how much I said, nobody will really understand...
Yes I m unpredictable. I m WEIRD~~~

I would rather close my mouth, n let d others say....
Cos I m speechless....

Life=no life???

2010-08-20T02:05:00.002+08:00

Since i entered into uni, I keep telling myself that i hav 2 change...
turn into a better person....
I try to make new circles of frens....
trying to adapt the environment n culture....
trying to make myself to love here.....

But everything seems not so well to me......

I have been sick for a month.... and i haven recover yet....
I have been confuse for a month... n now i m more confusing.....
I forced myself to cry everyday.... but my tears cant flow out.....
And i told myself i should change.... but i know it doesnt work....

I m not complainin my life is busy or hectic....
Uni life is hectic and should be enjoyable...
But it doesnt happen on me....
I m not happy, n i try to make myself happy (in front of the others)....

What should I do act.......??????

Until now i still need ppl 2 enlighten me, n showing my direction.....
I m not belong to wat i m situated in....
Thia is not my world.....

I HAVE NO LIFE AT HERE!!!!!

大学生活

2010-07-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

已经两个星期了
这么快就过去了

在这14天里我到底做了些什么？
一个字来形容-----混
我混过去了~~~

说实在，我还挺能接受大学的生活。。。。
撇开累与倦、其实还蛮好玩的。
全新的环境、圈子和文化，我必须要学会如何“接受”

学业方面暂时抛诸脑后，还是享受人生较重要呗！！！！
再会~~~

For Good

2010-07-01T02:08:00.003+08:00

This song is sing by Wicked.
But i more like de version of Sam Tsui ft. Nick Pitera.
De link is hown here---->>>>
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQYmSfLAbJ8&feature=related

Hmm i quite like the rhythm of this song.
But its lyrics attracted me more.....
It is so meaningful.
It reads my heart.

Lyrics:
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

This is just part of the lyrics.
It symbolises my feeling now...
Thx every1 for being my friend...

Feels released, finally

2010-06-30T11:51:00.002+08:00

Been so many yrs in primary, secondary and pre-U life.
Every year I had faced different types of challenges and tribulations.
Every year I think: This year is my hardest year ever.
Same goes from UPSR, PMR, SPM or even STPM.
And everytime when we looked back, its like 'kacang'.

Every year i met new friends, getting very well with them.
When second years come, our relationship is not as good as the 1st year anymore.
It becomes worse year by year.
I did not feel bad bcos my new friends replaced the old ones.

Now I m going for my new life.
Although it sounds I m bad but i really have to say goodbye to my old friends.
For sure we wont as buddy as we had before, but I do appreciate every moment that we had gone through.

I felt totally released, bcos finally I can release everything that I had before.
There is not many turning points in our whole life.
So I hope I can learnt from my old life, and getting back what I had missed or lost during my 'past life'.

Wanna fully use and enjoy the coming lifetimes.
Pretty soon will back blogging again.
Goodbye my friends, goodbye Tee Zhao Kang.

Am I really busy???

2010-06-28T10:19:00.003+08:00

I wonder why most of my friends are getting busier and busier (prepare for Uni life probably......)

"Hey how's ur preparation?" That's the way most of my friend starts a conversation with me....

Compare to my friends, I seem like nothing to prepare...
Sit at home, and waiting the DAY to come....
Wlsh that I am ready enough.....

I am well prepared ------ mentally

2010-06-19T22:45:00.002+08:00

"Acceptance is the only choice I can make"

I dont want wasting my time and think am I nasib malang
or even ' Fan Tai sui' (in chinese)

Never try, never know...
What I can do is prepare, research on internet, find any seniors which can help me....
Just to make me feel better....

Anyway i feel much much better now...
Dont want think whether its a good choice or not...
Whether its worth to study or not...
Put my 100% heart and soul.....
Prepare everything and starts my new life
With no regrets~~~~

做人不要太贪心

2010-06-18T16:42:00.002+08:00

我们小小的时候
大人时常问我们：长大要做什么啊？
我们总回答：医生、律师、工程师、飞机师。。。。。

现在长大了
看着自己朝着那个方向前进，可是我反而不觉得开心。。。。。

是我太贪心吗？这样还不够吗？你还要怎么样？
我挤不出笑容。。。。。

我知道比上不足，比下有余，但我还是无话可说。。。。
我是否太多抱怨？胡思乱想？不甘愿？

我看，是我太贪了！

I cant describe my feeling now.

2010-06-18T09:34:00.001+08:00

Am i happy? predicted? or disappointed?
watever it will be.

It's decided

2010-06-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time i did not post my blog with english...
Precisely, since my lower 6.
My english is getting poorer recently, but i did not notice about it.
Until i saw an article in newspaper about the weakness of local public graduates...

Mayb I am one of them, or maybe i wont be a graduate.
I told myself: I will never worry about getting into which Uni, or study which course.
I tried my best not to think about it. I tried not to view the date, or the calendar.

Until few days ago, I know I cant escape from it.
Although I keep pretending I am steady and be ready, but I found that I slept late.
11pm....12am...1am....2am and yet I still cant fall asleep.
Even though I got into bed, my dreams are all about ridiculous story....
"Suddenly I got an offer letter from Spain Uni...." Totally freak me out... Or somehow I am influenced by the FIFA

The next day, the coming days...
I dreamt a dream, and they all are about studies...
Am i too streesed?
I could not deny, I am 200% care for which Uni I will go, or which course...
from my bottom of heart...
I dont want be a nobody.....

Kang
17/06/2010
12.16a.m.

不让我的眼泪陪我过夜

2010-06-14T13:18:00.002+08:00

昨晚
我在电视广播无意间听到一首经典歌曲
让我深感触情
齐秦——————不让我的眼泪陪我过夜

歌词：
你的柔情似水
几度让我爱得沉醉
毫无保留不知道後悔
你能不能体会真情可贵
没有馀力伤悲
爱情像难收的覆水
长长来路走的太憔悴
你只留下我收拾这一切
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的吻留着馀味
忘了曾经爱过谁
慢慢习惯了寂寞相随
不让我的眼泪陪我过夜
不让你的脸梦里相对
爱的潮水已经退
我的真情不再随便给

想念最伤心，但却最动心，的记忆。

教师节快乐

2010-06-04T22:21:00.004+08:00

20岁的我
今天是第一次用不同的身份来过这个节日-----教师节

前几天，我满脑子都是在想要怎么办？
因为要打篮球！！！

今天一早当我到学校时
一坐下来，就有学生不停的跟我祝贺：郑老师，教师节快乐！
还有他们的礼物。。。。。
一个、两个、十个、二十个。。。。。。。
都不懂有多少个了。。。。

之后铃声响起了，老师们和学生都到礼堂集合，进行简短的教师节仪式。。。。。
各代表致词、学生表演、老师宣誓、唱教师节歌、赠送老师礼物。。。。。
令我印象最深刻的是当学生唱：隐性的翅膀
我真的被感动到了。。。。。

之后就开始所有的运动项目，球类，及其他游戏。。。。
篮球，哈哈，不用多说，了解我的人都知道我的情况。。。。。
赛跑，更不用说了。。。。。。
玩啊、癫啊。。。。。
不停的收礼物。。。。。
一直到我放学前回到办公室时，才发觉~~~~

天啊！！！
我的桌子竟然堆满了礼物、红笔、花朵、及祝贺卡。。。。。
夸张的是，我还要分几次才搬得上车啊！！！！

老师们经过我的位子是，纷纷都是--哇赛！！！的表情~~~~~
哈哈哈哈

我整整用了两个小时来把我的礼物拆开，欣赏他们给我的感恩卡~~~~
出乎意料的是，那些曾经没有做功课而被我痛骂一顿的学生，都在感恩卡里向我道歉，并答应会变好。。。。。
我再次被他们感动了~~~~~

这次的教师节，记忆很深，我不会忘记所有和一切
谢谢所有学生、老师们。谢谢！！！我爱你们！！！

希望这不会是我唯一一次的教师节的回忆~~~~

教师节-前夕

2010-06-03T14:33:00.003+08:00

哈哈哈哈
明天才教师节。。。。

可是还没到那天，我已经收到好多礼物了哦！！！

有简单的文具、自作的卡片、精制包装的礼物。。。。。

还有哈哈，红色的玫瑰花~~~~~

哈哈哈哈哈~~~~~

六月

2010-05-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

现在是五月二十九日，十时三十三分~~

距离六月的日子，就在前端。

就在前端~~~~~

我是超人

2010-05-27T22:11:00.001+08:00

突然发觉
我好有毅力哦

今天，我竟然一口气改完了145份的考卷！！！！
总算松了一口气~~~~ Huhuhuhu~~~~

145份的考卷剥夺了我一整天的时间、精神、体力及自由！！！！
虚脱！！！

好闷哦！

2010-05-26T12:52:00.003+08:00

今天还是考试周。。。。。

一如往常，我照旧带着考卷进入课室，开始考试。。。。。

考了不久。。。。。。。。
我竟然在黑板画了起来。。。。

嘿嘿嘿~~~~ 4E课室

我竟然画上瘾。。。。。。。
过后也在5B班做了同样的事~~~~~~

还添加了彩虹与花朵~~~~
好好玩哦！！！！

又破戒了！

2010-05-23T22:21:00.001+08:00

前几天我才很骄傲的说：我没乱乱花钱！！！
还记得那天是星期五晚上。。。。。

星期六下午，我去1U逛街，结果买了一袋衣服回家。。。。。
今天早上，我去MIDVALLEY，又逛街，又买了一袋衣服回家。。。。。。。

用了我RM300+~~~~~~
真没用~~~~~~！！！！！

开心

2010-05-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

为什么我开心？
因为学生考到好成绩咯
好多同学得满分哦！！！
很好！！！

不过为了奖励他们
我该买什么呢？？？？
头痛！！！

你幸福吗？

2010-05-18T22:18:00.003+08:00

此刻的你，是真的幸福吗？
以前的抱怨，以后的抱负，使你感受到幸福吗？

对我而言，我觉得我的人生美中不足，可是过了今天，我感受到我是幸福的。。。。

还记得当我踏入学校的第几天,我曾经问过学生：有谁是单亲家庭的？
讶异的，竟然有好多位同学举手；同样的，我跑到别班去问会同样的问题，也是很多同学举手。。。。
一开始我还不知所措，很怕说了一些话会伤到他们，可是看见他们若无其事的样子，想必他们已经接受这个现实了吧~~~~~~

值得一提的是，在单亲家庭长大的小孩都特别懂事，似乎都知道妈妈/爸爸做工很辛苦~~~~~

但是，有好多的学生都很强悍，一直在伪装自己的坚强~~~~
他们有很多的心事，跟同学说他们不会明，又不愿跟老师说，憋在他们的心理确实难受~~~~
直到今天一位同学跑过来个我说出他的心事，我才顿时感觉到，小孩真的很需要他人的关爱~~~

平时表现出很调皮、爱玩、多嘴的六年级精英班的小男生，每天都是蹦蹦跳跳的。。。。。。。
直到今天，我才发觉，他在伪装自己~~~~~~
父母抛弃、寄人篱下、饱受家庭暴力影响下长大的小孩，他竟然还很自爱~~~~
与他谈吐了一小时多，我感觉到，他比别人早熟了，他长大了~~~~
撇开老师的身份，我竟然像个哥哥，慢慢的了解这位弟弟的问题，及他心里的感受~~~~
我知道他不需要别人的可怜~~~~~
我也知道，他一定会成功的！

倒数

2010-05-07T22:16:00.002+08:00

这么快
我的工作日，只剩下20天。。。。。。。。。。
开始不舍得我的同事及学生。。。。。。。。

小孩子，尤其是小学生，一下子就长大了。。。。。。
我曾经向三年级的学生说过：等我读完大学出来，他们已上中学了。。。。
我也曾经向六年级的学生说过：等我读完大学出来，他们也要读完中学了。。。。

即使到时，我们还认得对方，他们还会在街上，大大声地叫我一声‘老师‘吗？
我问过一位学生，改天如果在街上遇见，你还记得我吗？
他答我：一日为师，终生为师
虽然我知道他随便讲讲而已，可是我还是被他感动了。。。。。

现在的我，知道了什么叫‘师者所以传道、授业、解惑也‘这个道理。。。。。。
我没有妄想学生们会记得我
只希望他们可以好好做人,向上，向善就行了。。。。。。

哈哈，我真的有被改变了~~~~~~~~~~~

人云亦云

2010-05-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

很多人都去做的事，就是应该的吗？
别人家的梦想，我也该去争一份回来吗？

我到底做得对不对？
眼看我只朝着哪个方向迈进
可是我却没停下来想一想，那是我的方向吗？
我会后悔吗？

一连串的反问，也解不开我心中的疑惑~~~~~~~~~

变态的老师

2010-04-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

其实我想问问一下
认识我的人
我会很凶吗？

为何我的学生
小学的
甚至是中学的
都说我很凶呢？

小学生可能会怕老师，这我了解
可是中学生，我才讲两句，就说我骂人
而且是说我比他们以前的老师还凶很多倍

我真的有那么恐怖吗？
还是我真的是变态？

改变

2010-04-14T22:10:00.001+08:00

自从我工作到现在
我越来越肥
也越来越老
更越来越黑
不爽!!!!!!!

爵士音乐

2010-04-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

相隔已久
我也好几个月没听爵士音乐了

今天空闲的我
望着窗外的雨滴
突然挑起我的神经

寂静的夜晚
独自的上网
面子书也看了
email也翻阅了

不知该做什么的时候
开着爵士音乐
闭上双眼
好歹也是种享受

不用理会现在几点
一直
直到我
睡了~~~~~

电话坏了

2010-03-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

不懂是不幸
还是注定
我的电话终于坏了

可怜的我
没有空闲去买电话
怎么办？

而且
我还没找到我心目中的电话
可我现在真的急得像太监了

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！

罗志祥--老实讲

2010-03-17T21:24:00.002+08:00

wanna share a touching song with u guys......
mayb tis is d situation faced by some guys....

愛妳卻從不講幸福的致命傷
從此我只能夠在部落格上
路過你快樂悲傷

你說你想飛翔所以我不阻擋
希望你能夠在他的肩膀上
找到那愛的信仰

我承認有些話當時沒老實講
那麼壞人就讓我來當
我了解有些話現在沒老實講
明天我將失去了膽量
當你成為別人的新娘

你說你想飛翔所以我不阻擋
希望你能夠在他的肩膀上
找到那愛的信仰

我承認有些話當時沒老實講
那麼壞人就讓我來當
我了解有些話現在沒老實講
明天我將失去了膽量
當你成為別人的新娘

我承認有些話當時若老實講
現在就不會兩敗俱傷
其實愛你的心早已瀕臨瘋狂
連我自己也無法抵抗
再也還原不了的時光

是时候结束一切

2010-03-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

所有的感情
回忆
我会让它过去

这是人生旅途的小插曲
我还要向前走

不要不舍你的过去
你的路
只有往前冲
往后走只会让你到不了终点

等到你走到终点
你就会开始想走回去起点
可你已经没有力再走了
这就是人生

所以人生，要舍弃，才会得到。

最后一丝的光

2010-03-11T20:13:00.001+08:00

这是我的最后希望
我希望我能得到
我不会放弃

竭尽所能，撑到最后！

人在江湖，身不由己

2010-03-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

今天，听见朋友们说着工作的乐趣
好玩的，好奇的，新鲜的；我都不能参与

我也想停掉我现在的工作
可是之前我已答应人家会做到六月
如果现在我反口，我就是很不负责任，没有信用

我真的很累了
跟我之前所计划的一切，完全错了
我的人生去了哪里？
我不要做个金钱的奴隶

我该怎么办？
想停，可不能停~~~~~~~~~~~

飞到我要去的地方。。。。。

2010-03-04T22:28:00.002+08:00

生活了这么多年
是时候我要离开了

我一直都在等待
一个可以让我离开的时机
一个机会
一的地方
去到没有人认识我的地方

去到工作那里，我不开心
在家里，我更不开心
为什么你那么爱管？
什么东西你都觉得你对？
不是什么事都要听你的
我已20岁
我有我的主见
我不是白痴

只要一有机会
我会第一个离开

讨厌这里的一切！

没有郑兆康的日子-第三天

2010-03-04T21:37:00.001+08:00

今天
是我第三天
没有理会我的朋友

在他们的心里
我是那么的郁闷
沮丧
情绪化

我也不知道
为什么我不想说话

我承认
我情绪有点低落
我想一个人
静一静

希望你们能体谅我
我会很快‘回来‘的！

可以让我好过一点吗？

2010-03-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

已是过去
往事不要再提
过去就让它过去

一切都是缘分
时机不合
什么都变成不可能

既然它即将成为过去
就不要一直在重温它吧

我跟我说
就算我们缘分未绝
我们也不会。。。。

时间如果会暂停

2010-03-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

很得空的我
今晚
翻阅了我全部博客
看回我以前写过的东西
才发觉时间真得很快很快

当初一直在拼命读书
预考
班上的玩闹
放假
大考
直到考完的日子
大放假
玩乐
做工
新年
成绩放榜

我经历了很多东西
我学会成熟了
学会放下
摒除执著

如果时间还停留在15岁那年
我又怎样呢？
如果我知道五年后现在的我
当初的我
又会如何改变现在的我?

现在的我
听着Nick Jonas & The Administration 的 Who I Am~~~~~~

一切已成定局

2010-02-28T21:09:00.002+08:00

过了这么多天
我终于有勇气面对我的成绩了
好又怎样？不好又怎样？
我还要继续我的生活
漫漫长日
虽然我与我的梦想画上了句号
不过换另一个角度想想
我将展开新的梦想
新的希望

讲没有不开心是假的啦！
要不开心的也是时候该完了吧！

大家，醒来咯！
面对现实最实际！

成绩出炉前的心情

2010-02-23T23:57:00.001+08:00

心里还是很平静
不等待，也不害怕
要来的，始终会来

我会坦然地接受一切～～～～～

快点开工啦！

2010-02-22T09:16:00.002+08:00

新年的十天假期，我还以为可以好好的休息
可是这十天，我都不懂我做了些什么
就这样，今天就是我最后一天春假

之前我还窜我的朋友我有多一天假期
可是我现在才发现，呆在家里好闷好闷啊！
真的希望能快点开工，不是因为有钱赚，而是我的时间过得好慢哦！

快点快点吧！

新年过后？

2010-02-21T10:45:00.002+08:00

原本还一直很期待的新年
这么快就要完了
实际上也已经完了
因为这次真的完了
完蛋了！！！！

不是说好新年后的吗
为何要这么快来？

其实我好矛盾
我不想它来，却又很不想等待
我的心在呐喊
我的筋在折腾
我的血，我的汗，都不停的沸腾

到现在
我开始慢慢觉得
我比较不那么介意成绩了
进哪间大学
选读什么课系
我好像也不那么的在乎

反而
成绩出炉后
我的中六旅程就好像画上了句号
一年半的回忆就这样放进纪念册里
是不是这一切就结束呢？
现在想回，我情愿继续我的中六生活
我不想再一切重新开始

有人说中六不好
浪费时间等等
可是我要告诉那些人
我过得很好
我不后悔读了中六
我更庆幸我选择了这条路
如果要我重选
我还是会选择它

中六的一切一切，再见！

新年快乐的祝福

2010-02-18T09:32:00.002+08:00

除夕的晚上
我特别早睡
烟火的闪耀
炮竹的响亮
把我从周先生的身旁带回来
岔眼一看
已是初一了
手机里的祝福
让我慢慢的看
慢慢的又从枕边睡回下去
谢谢所有祝福我的人
不管是朋友，知己，亲戚，同事，还是学生
我都祝你们事事顺利！

一路顺风

2010-02-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

朋友
我知道我很对不起你
一次又一次的让你失望

这次你要走了
我不怪你没有通知我
虽然我是从别人口中知道你要走
我还是百般的不舍得你

不管你有没有生气我
不管你还记不记得我
我依然还是你的好朋友
我会一直默默的支持你
我还是你的好朋友

等你回来
展翅高飞吧！

新电话！！！

2010-02-09T19:51:00.003+08:00

哈哈！！！
我终于买了新电话了

它是Nokia 2730 classic.....
一个很普通的电话
3G的, 相机才2.0MP而已.......

哈哈，真的普通到没话说......
所以价钱也很普通而已......
才RM499......
不过也很开心啦，因为有了新的电话............

那电话不是我的，是我妈妈的.....
=.=|||

一个月

2010-02-04T14:18:00.002+08:00

真得很快
我不停的工作
也不停的投诉

这样，我也投诉了整整一个月
也做工了一个月
体验了种种世俗

好人，坏人，小人，不是人；我都遇见了
开心的是，原来我还能够承受这一切
不开心的，是我必须继续承受这一切

再过一个月，我的心情又会转变了
期待‘那天‘的到来？
我会紧张，还是平常心呢？

一个月，还有一个月，只有一个月
而我要面对的，不知会是怎样的场景
我不想‘它’来，却不想再等下去

赐我力量与勇气捱多一个月吧！

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

2010-01-27T17:48:00.000+08:00

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

Bali Tirp

2010-01-24T22:38:00.005+08:00

hmmm 5D4N at Bali Club Med.....
it was soooo fun n enjoy....
words cant describe much, so i use photo to explain 4 me....
this is my room bed (sooooo red)....
Below r my Club Med environment photos.....
it was sooooo nice....

Bar in Club Med....

Me with my mum

haha resting....

hmmmm Tanah Lot, a traveller destination at Bali Island...

Volcano.... smokes still coming out!!!

my dinner.....

haha this called bungee trampoline....
fun....
wanna noe more bout my trip????
view my facebook profile lol....
sorry doraemon(pls open a facebook account la)....

Bali

2010-01-17T00:29:00.002+08:00

Haha 12 hours later i will on da plane....
goin 2 vacation at Bali Island lu~~~~~
now just start to have my vacation feel....
hmmmm wat 2 pack in my luggage???
cincai la watever just throw inside.. keke...

feel excited when think bout snorkling, diving. kayaking, yoga etc....
kaka.......
n hope i have d darker n healthier skin..... haha....
n take many many photos (although i dun 1 show my zhu lam yok)...
haha.......
frens, wait my souvenier bah..... hehe.......
Off my phone and enjoy my 5D4N rejuvenate trip at Clubmed luuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!

我累了

2010-01-14T20:28:00.002+08:00

每天放学后的我，总是归心似箭，想快点回家，离开战区。。。。
可是每天回到家的我，不是冲凉，也不是换衣；而是一边把午餐塞进口里，一边昏昏欲睡。。。
我真的好累。。。。
每天都不能睡午觉的我，只能靠着澡后的片刻精神，撑到夜晚。。。
晚上的我，也不知为何，会精神起来，所以又会迟睡。。。
算起来，我真的每天只有5小时的睡眠。。。。
我该怎样继续撑下去呢？

我好想‘倒‘了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

缺点

2010-01-12T21:43:00.002+08:00

活了这么多年，终于有人肯开口，一一地数出我的不好．．．
说多不多，说少不少吧．．．．
虽然我知道还有一些缺点，是他们不敢讲的．．．
但，我还是很开心．．．．

说下说下，谈到一些事，让我想了很多事情．．．．
顿时，我也不想再说下去了．．．．

大家要幸福哦！

20岁了？！？！

2010-01-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

前几天，当我在填表格时，年龄那项，我填了20。。。
这么快就过完我的少年时光，迈入成人的世界。。。

20年的我，究竟经历过什么事呢？
翻起我的旧记忆，我尽然只找到‘读书‘这两个字。。。
感觉上，我真的好像没有什么童年。。。

上了中学，我也不懂为何我还只是只注重学业。。。
或许是住得远吧，搞得我什么课外活动都没参与。。。
直到中六那一年半，才算是过得没那么乏味。。。。
我真的真的很后悔，当初我为什么不活跃？

现在的我，对我的小学及中学生涯，还存在着一箩箩的后悔，还是后悔。。。。
中学可以享受的青春，洋溢，疯狂，傻里傻气；我却错过了。。。
再也找不回以前那种感觉，完了，没了。。。

一大堆的感触，就是我活了20年所留下来的‘礼物‘吧。。。

我告诉我自己，我荒废了20年。。。。
接下来的20年，40年，以往的日子，我不会再让我后悔。。。。
要把每一天，都记录成可以被怀念的日子。。。

朋友，努力的呼吸，享受每一丝的阳光吧。。。。

我是“呜莎男“？

2010-01-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

性格：重情义的大哥型
[呜莎]型的男人，凡事以印象、直觉作为基准，再加上自己的理解，作为行动准则。不为旁人所左右，确实地按照自己的步调行事。
虽然表面一副冷库，、粗鲁的样子，实则很重感情，一旦信任一个人，便为他赴汤蹈火在所不辞。即使故作老练世故，其实却拥有一颗纯真的心。凡事尽心尽力坚持到底的[呜莎]男，也常常成为同性所依赖、仰慕的大哥。
另一方面，由于对人的好恶仅凭一时的印象，所以有时对人会很严厉，遇到不懂规矩的无礼之徒，便毫不留情地教训他；或是一旦讨厌一个人，就不愿与他来往。此外，常常受到既有印象的束缚，自己无法立即修正，因而让人觉得冥顽不灵。好奇心旺盛，是个爱做梦的浪漫主义者。喜欢尝试各种事物，但因受到左脑的理性抑制，不会莽撞行事，保持万分谨慎的稳健作风。虽然不会一败涂地，但有时候会感到自己魄力不足，陷入进退维谷的窘境。
在饮酒等聚会上，[呜莎]男能迅速掌握现场气氛，很有技巧地带动大家，让场面更加热闹。与人对话也很在行，想必十分受到大家的喜爱。

工作：行侠仗义的首领人物
工作是生命的全部！以此为座右铭的他，总是怀抱理想，为了得到自己认可的结果而竭尽所能，是个拼命三郎。
会把和自己关系好的对象拉拢到身边，成为当中的领导者，善于灵活运用交际手腕。
有幸遇到值得尊敬的工作伙伴时，便会发挥无穷的潜能。相反地，若是单枪匹马，或与共事的伙伴和不来的话，就会累积很大的压力。对于负责经营和企划的工作得心应手，但似乎不擅长处理遵照指令的例行性事务。

金钱：收放自如的随心所欲派
由于同时具有以能力来评断他人的严酷面和情义相挺得温情面，因此常令人感到困惑不解。获得他人认同，是令[呜莎]男最有成就感的事，所以，此类型的人应该不是和成果不易显现的工作吧。
由于基本上有份工作，有收入进账，想要花钱时懂得妥善调配，该花就花，该省则省。
虽说不会冒险投资，但也不喜欢缩衣节食的计划性储蓄，所以开支或许不少。手头宽裕时，便大方请客、马上投资前景看好的股票；阮囊羞涩时，也很懂得自我节制、找人买单。属于就算钱包里只有50元也能过一天的类型。人品不会因为有钱或没钱而改变。
对于金钱的嗅觉很敏锐，所以一旦发现投资理财的机会，便能稳扎稳打地获利。从来不会去赌博。

恋爱：凭感觉闯江湖的一飞冲天型
[呜莎]型的男人不考虑地位、条件，处于本能地坠入情网，是个爱情至上主义者。正因为如此，他也强烈地渴望“被人爱”、“受人欢迎”。只不过他一开始会暂时不动声色，先在心里仔细推敲作战计划，因此也有精于算计的一面。
随着对象的不同，他时而故意表现的冷淡，时而给人意外的惊喜，借以凸显自己的存在感。对方如果有反应，便一鼓作气乘胜追击。明明热情澎湃，但绝对不打没有把握的仗，因此恋爱成功的几率可说是很高。
一旦交往，便会为对方付出一切取悦她，或相反地依赖她，爱得很深。因此，对女友的要求也多，只要有些微的龃龉，便表露出压抑已久的猜测、嫉妒，恋情很可能就如反掌般迅速冷却。
只不过，[呜莎]男原本即是没有爱情便活不下去的人，对女友的迷恋也深，因此分手之后想必仍念念不忘吧？尤其是被女友甩得时候，受创更是巨大。
对于性爱，虽然想忠于自己的本能追求肉体的快乐，但相对于性行为本身，他更重视做爱得过程。意思就是说，[呜莎]男称得上是甜言蜜语的高手。专心一意地在床上营造甜蜜淫乱的气氛。
如果结了婚，虽然不求家人间的感情很亲密，但把家庭看作自己的城堡，因此会好好守护着它。

是meh?

不好玩的！！！

2010-01-05T15:03:00.002+08:00

昨天是我第一天上班，早上6点就爬起来了。
以为会很好玩的我，蛮开心的去上班。
怎知道，原来教小孩其实一点都不简单。
吵到要死！！！！
不听我的课就算了，还要吵得天翻地覆，蹦蹦跳跳，一点都不把我看在眼里。
冷血的我，不必讲肯定是大发雷霆，把他们骂得静静不出声。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！
如果可以的话，早就抓他们的头去撞墙咯！！！可见我是多么的讨厌小孩。
原本还以为可以为了钱，而忍一忍我很讨厌的小孩，可我现在醒悟了。
我真的再也没有那种热情再教小学了。

捱了一天，还希望今天会更好。。。。
哪里知道~~~~~~~
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！
我越来越讨厌接触小学生了啦！！！！
我不要不要。。。。。
放过我吧，我真的不想继续下去！！！！
才两天我就这样，怎样捱到6个月？

明天，后天，大后天，我又会要如何发疯呢？
喊到喉咙沙哑的我，真的觉得我累了~~~~

真的，不好玩。

Last night

2010-01-03T03:29:00.002+08:00

Hmmm mayb 2day is my last night so late sleep lo....
after 2day, i need 2 wake up early n sleep early....
mayb even no time on9, dun say blogging anymore...
but i hope i still can make some time out 2 on9....
at least can let all care me d ppl noe my condition...

4 those who going 2 start skul d, gambahteh!!!
4 those who going 2 start work d, gambahteh!!!
4 those who dono wat 2 do d, gambahteh!!!!

lets makes our life colorful n meaningful!!!
yeah!!!

So tired oh!!!

2009-12-30T20:40:00.002+08:00

Story starts from this monday...
I was sleeping on my lovely bed....
N i feel my phone is vibrating on the floor....
Without thinking twice, i picked up d phone and say huh?~~~~
Actually is a skul teacher telling me that a primary skul wanna hire a temporary teacher...
N later i call back to the school, follow d instructions, bring along my information and spm result copies, go to the school n fill in some forms....
And that, i m 'told' 2 b hired as a tempo teacher.....

And it goes to tuesday...
I have a meeting. They told me starts at 830....
OH MY GOD!!!!! The meeting till 5pm......
Im going to die la.....
Sitting at there for so many hours and get know nothing.....
Such a wasting of time.....

Finally it comes to today....
Yeah you are right...
The meeting continues....
This time is from 8 till 430.....
Wat???? Again?????
Yes i m being tortured one more time......
God!!! Please save me...... Y there is so much meeting????

And before I back, just get to know 2ml i have to back skul AGAIN!!!!!
730 till wat time??? still dono......
Plsssssss la, enough la.........
I m just 1 2 be a tempo teacher, y included me in so much 'activities' d??????
If tomorrow they told me thursday got meeting anymore, i m going to quit it......
I m not low paid labour ok??????

Anyway i m really tired n tired n tired....
Plsss let me go~~~~~

做么？不懂。

2009-12-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

做么你酱迟还不要睡？
做么你酱迟还要上网？
做么你还不去找工？
做么你还在家凉地？
做么你要无所事事？

我就是不懂要做什么，睡不着。
我就是不懂要做什么，才上网。
我就是不懂要做什么，所以不懂要找什么工。
我就是不懂要做什么，才暂时在家凉地。
我就是不懂要做什么，才会无所事事。

不然，我就不用酱‘废‘在这里写废话咯！

Christmas

2009-12-25T16:29:00.003+08:00

Yeah merry christmas to everyone!!!

For this year christmas eve, i m not choosing getting countdown at a place....
neither joining frens for clubbing...
but gather at jy house celebrating with healthy food stuffs...
haha wat a new experience!!!

few fren getting 2gete, chit-chating with no purposes, just 2 pass time....
n ya, v exchange christmas present too!!!!
receive a unpredicted present yesterday.... XD
n hoping d receipient of my present will like it...

Myself

2009-12-24T01:33:00.002+08:00

i still remember b4, got ppl say i veli fake....
i also remembered, ppl like to say i m childish....
mayb i m tat childish, in their eyes...
but i nvr feel i m childish....

y i nid 2 act childish, 4 who? is all 4 u al lo....
who cal u d 1st impression already set me as tat kind of person...
how m i goin 2 change, or shud i say, be back myself?
o shud i say, i still dono who m i?

there's some1 enlighten me b4.....
told me not to be so childish.....
i keep asking izit i m tat childish....
i feel sad not bcos....
not bcos no gal like childish......
is izit till now i still cant find a person really noes me well?

19yrs of living, i really think i m a failure......
not bcos i m single, not bcos i did bad in exam n not bcos i hav no fren (although i hav not much fren)....
is in 19yrs of living, i still cant feel d meaning of living.....
i m still d guy, pointless mayb? childish 4 sure?
i oso dun 1 b tat kind of guy in front of u al......
i oso 1 2 change.....
but how far i can change? change till u dono d me? den izit still me?
but if i din change d onli word i get is childish?
den wat u 1 from me?
sometimes i think b4 if nobody noe me b4....
n i start my life all over again....
intro myself again..... let u al noe d new of me.....
move to a place, where nobody noes me... starts my life again.....

at least i m not d me now

I dono

2009-12-23T00:49:00.003+08:00

hmmm back from penang 2 days already.
a tiring trip, exhausted journey...
unforgetable memory...
tis kind of memory, once is enough 4 me....
i dono izit conisder fun there, but i noe, d happiest thing i found there is...
when everynite finally i can back hotel room n get a nice shower.

mayb i laughed, i smiled in every moment, every second in the photo, and my laughter fill up the whole trip, but i cant find any sweet memory after i coming back.
4 me, its more 2 a task, a guiding task.
after finish my work, finally i got bit bit of sleeping n resting hour...
when back to kl, i just feel huuuuuuuu, relieved!

i dono its my own feeling? i m weird person? o i duno how 2 appreciate every moment...
frens r still frens, its not ur fault, fren.
i lazy 2 post any photo here, cos i din feel any fun of posting those photo...
the same thing, tat is also a task which i have 2 upload to facebook.
so after i upload n tag every1, i hav done my job.
dun complain and dun criticise. i din do anything wrong....

i din get angry with any1
i din bu shuang any1
i m like tat~~~~ tat kind of weird

next trip? i better shut my mouth....
i'll join, but just 4 a participant....
pay d $$ n go....
n i wont complain anything...
as u al....

我回来了

2009-12-10T22:55:00.002+08:00

70天的日子过去了
我虽然回来了，可是我变了
漫长的70天，我是否有无数的言论呢？

以往的日子，或许我过得自在，还是蹉跎，更是荒废了呢？
我并不知道。分享我这70天的回忆？我的脑子里竟然是空白的
我的回忆不是我的

那究竟我，还是那个闷闷不乐，时癫时懊恼的家伙吗？或许吧！
倾诉，也只把心中的不满再不断的提升，它，不会不见，只会慢慢被冲淡。

我有改变吗？有！
还是一样的无语伦次？是！
我变的，是我，我不爱笑了。

尽请留意，万勿错过！！

2009-12-06T23:23:00.003+08:00

2009年12月10日

大事发生！！！
猛猪即将重出江湖~~~~

倒数：4天

50 DaYS

2009-09-27T23:08:00.002+08:00

hmm last 50 days till my stpm...
den summore my exam lasts for 3 weeks...
so i'll b away for around 70 days....

den will back blogging back again....
anyway wish every1 who study d gud luck....

chinese d happy mooncake festival....

happy n healthy oways...

sincere,
kang

Sunday

2009-09-20T23:09:00.002+08:00

today is hari raya....
n a normal sunday 4 me....

a borin morning....
but luckily i waste it with transformer movie....

afternoon?
oso luckily my sis bring me go shopping...
Timesquare....
bought a shirt 4 myself (satisfied)
XD

den goin 2 Sunway hav buffet steamboat as my dinner....
金厨麻辣火锅
RM19.80 onli....
4 those who like 2 eat spicy.... recommend 4 u al...
cheap, fresh n nice....

n now comin back on9...
continue my studies~~~~~
This is my Sunday................

Ahhhhhhhh i m so slow la...

2009-09-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

YYYYYYYyyyy?

y until tis time i suddenly noe how 2 do my trial question...

while i m doin my past year math question, there is 1 question similar 2 my trial math question...
it was so easy 2 solve, but when trial time, i were lost~~~~

i dono how 2 do tat time...
n just leave it half way....
y now onli i suddenly remember how 2 do....

i really can 4give myself...
it was just subsitute d unknown with another equation n find d value of unknown....
but i 4get it n keep use d unknown continue my calculation...
until my equation hav too many unknown... n i lost.....

y i m so stupid?
even though i do many times 2 question when exam, i still cant think bout subsitute it...
hey it was just an substitute part... even a f1 student noe how 2 do it...
but i 4get!!!!!!

i m veli angry with myself.....
useless...
rubbish...
i had broke many ppl's hope on me...
even math i couldnt get an A now...
yyyyyyyyy?
y now i become like tis?
i really cry with no tears...

HOliDAy=No HoLidAY

2009-09-17T20:14:00.002+08:00

Yes holiday lol.....
Oh no i m getting closer 2 my STPM...

Dono y i totally dun hav any holiday feeling....
Dun hav any plan 2 wasting my holiday..... (mayb studying)
Cos trial broke my hope edi.....
goodbye my A's.....
XD

mayb tis is d max level i can be......
as cantonese sayings: 没酱大的头，就不要戴酱大的帽~~~~
haha it is so suitable use on me......
i m really not tat smart as u think.....
i noe i cant achieve ur target, but tats me....
我就是一个酱的人

please forgive me i m tat kind of useless.....

Gathering

2009-09-11T23:30:00.002+08:00

exam period still go gathering?
yalo cos 1 more fren is leaving on monday...
goin 2 Manchester...
wah straight away think bout football le....
haha

so long din meet my form 5 classmates..
every1 still d same...
same childish...
same style....

haha besides gathering, i still can get some time 4 shopping...
finally bought a jacket 4 my bro's birthday present....
hope he likes it...

n so fast once i reach home, study again......
haiz....
dono y tis time i noe i'll score badly 4 my chemistry yet i m so relax n nvr feel any guilty at al..
mayb i noe i m not d '1'
n i nvr 1 2 compete o win any1....
just blieve me tat my exam r terrible, please.....

life goes on....

What m i doin recently?

2009-09-08T01:23:00.002+08:00

Haiz time passed day by day....
i m getting older n older....

every time i 'look' back....
i done nothing...
sacrifice much time 4 study, but every time end up with sitting in front of com..

y y i m so uncontrollable?
stupid me just sleep 4 hours per day....
mayb its equivalent 2 somebody's nap....

i shud hav time 2 complete a lot of works rite....
i wish i had....
i wish i have..
i wish i m havin....

My trial starts

2009-09-04T16:29:00.002+08:00

yeah 2day my trial exam finally starts off with biology paper.....
i study a lot yet still dono answer some of d question.....

Actually it is neither hard nor easy la....
but if got study sure can score well... (coz i saw my fren so fast can finish n sleep on desk)
sad that i din study all, tats y just first paper i oledi not satisfy with myself....

d next paper is chemistry pulak....
OMG my weakest subject.....
so worry but wat i can do is worry onli.....
swt....

hmm my trial till 17september... still far 2 go lo....

Gambahteh everyone, Gambahteh myself!

今天发生很多事情！！！

2009-09-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

奇怪？我今天用华语来写。。。

今天是什么日子?
除了华人农历的七月十四。。。

还有，
我的好朋友终于飞去加拿大了~~~ 而且一飞就飞四年。。。。
但，我竟然没有去送他的机，而他就酱走了。。。
小学到现在的好朋友，突然间走到酱远读书，还真的不舍得。。。

无论如何，祝他一路顺风，平安，健康，快乐。。。
希望我们还能保持联络，友谊万岁！！！

恐怖的鬼节。。。。恐怖
朋友的离开。。。。感伤
还有什么事呢？
开心的？
是咯。。。不懂为什么？不懂如何？
我的电话配套突然间自动转成Hotlink Youth Club。。。。
真棒哦！！！

复杂的心情，当然少不了烦躁的事情咯。。。
不用讲，肯定就是为了考试的事情咯！！！

在此送上给所有要考试的朋友。。。。
努力！！！

I'm lovin it

2009-08-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

Hmm 2day it was so great bcos i eat a lot a lot a lot of food....
can u imagine 1 table of people can eat 20+ dishes? N it is chinese dishes, whole plate whole plate.
wah i cant believe me n my frens r so geng...
my table consist of 13 people, n 11 of them r gals....
but v still manage 2 'clean' 20+ of dishes....
unpredicted..

hmm i shud list out wat i eat 2day... hahahaha test my memory now....
*** sorry i 4get 2 take photo***

蟹皇鱼翅
姜葱炒石斑鱼
亚三蒸石斑鱼
宫保鱿鱼
黑椒炒鱿鱼
宫保鸡丁
芭蕉鸡
金沙虾
四大天王
月光杂蔬煲
豆根烩煲
珍珠鲍烩百灵菇
辣子螃蟹
菜香豆腐
脆皮豆腐
红烧豆腐
叉烧拼盘
烧肉拼盘
脆皮烧鸭
麻油海蜇
番茄蛋煲
蜜瓜西米露
雪耳豆奶皇

hahaha so could v finish it?
i dono v just sit n eat... but after v finish everything n count back, n realise it was 'WOW'!!!!
how much izit?
RM26.80++

so after add tea, peanut, towel, room fee n taxes 10%,
each person onli cost RM38.90....
so dai so dai....
hahahaha.....

n i m so full n tired edi...
gud nite every1!

Holiday

2009-08-21T23:46:00.005+08:00

well holiday start from 2ml n it'll lasts 4 a week.
but my fren n i dun feel any happiness 4 d week.
ya u r rite, trial is coming...
just after holiday...

i thought i'll b busy study in d following week, but i feel i hav many other things 2 do...
y when a person grows older he/she hav 2 consider so many thing?
mayb it makes me cant concentrate on study?
i dono wats make me so fan, but i noe i m just fan.

i dun really hope my marks will drop, yet i hope i can improve summore..
i noe i m lazy, indeed. BUT i'll try my best so tat i wont regret when c d result....
hmm y i say so far le, in fact my preparation was suck...
i nid booster, e.g rocket enjine. Any1 can lend me?

hmm i just hope have improvement, izit consider over? No rite, i think so...
70 n above 4 all d subject ok gua?
haha greedy? yea i m greedy? who dun 1 it? mayb higher...

i think back wat my teacher told again...
dun think u hav no time 2 study....
think tat u just nid 2 suffer 4 short time onli....
n it'll pays~~~

Yeah really? Dunno me either~~~

2ml no skul?

2009-08-20T03:18:00.001+08:00

tis is d normal question i hav been ask everytime i on9 during nite...
dono y i till now still cant sleep...
in fact normally i wake up at 530 n prepare 2 go skul...
wat m i doin now?
bcome an ironman?
ian not = iron ok?
i m short of time.... i nid much time to complete my stuff....
sacrifice my sleep time is d onli way i can use.....
but still, i m on9 and blogging....
how much time is still not enough 4 me....
i dono wat i 1 2 do now.....
i m lost.......

LOST~~~~~

Aiya?! Luckily

2009-08-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hi 2day i m goin 2 share a story of a 'big prawn head' person with every1.....
He goes to skul 2day....
Just b4 half hour skul-ing finish, he found tat his car key in not inside his pants' pocket....
OMG>>>
Where izit?
He rush out skul~~ to his car...
n found tat his car key is still in d car!!!!!
but d car was locked!!!!
He cried? No... He was just shocked....
Wat 2 do? hmm luckily he is so smart and get another car key (fren's car key) which has d same model of car.....
Haiz Luckily it can open n he took back his car key again.......
Haiz He is so 'big prawn head'.........

I was He
XD

I wanna watch movie

2009-08-08T21:48:00.002+08:00

It's been a hot day long....
I oso dono how many times i sweat, just hot n hot.
It makes me dun 1 2 stay at home in tis saturday...
I really wanna go n watch a movie, a Cantonese comedy---大内密探灵灵狗

Haiz dun 1 2 think it anymore, since i cant go out now.....

Nothing 2 write....

2009-08-07T22:49:00.002+08:00

Dono izit bcos keep eating medicine, i just sleep n sleep.
From bedroom sleep till living room, den from sofa sleep back 2 my bed....
haiz feels like my life is so boring.....
I m lazy 2 do anything, although i noe i have much work waiting me 2 complete them...
A lot~~~

just bcos i 1 blogging... so i blog it....

Life is indeed a mystery to be lived and not a problem to be solved~~~~

Sick~~~~

2009-08-06T14:13:00.002+08:00

haiz its been the third day i din continue my blogging...
miss me? haha...

haiz if want 2 say..... its really a long long story....

I shall start with monday night....

Just bcos my coughing haven recover, i went 2 a 'rubbish' clinic n get some 'diagnosis' and 'prognosis"....
which means cough a-give cough medicine...
running nose a-give suitable medicine...
really rubbish...

after i took d medicine in the next day morning (tuesday)...
1 hour later i straight away fall sick n sleep in class whole day.....
i thought i'll b alright so after skul i went back home, i still giving tuition 2 my student bcos their exam is coming....
It was so unexpected that in tat night, i measured my body temperature n it shoots up to 39.65 degree Celcius.....
Wat 2 do? so i get an injection in a medical centre....

hmm so now till Wednesday....
Yup my fever still persist, n it still remains at 38-39....
i just continue eating my medicine n sleep until evening~~~
i really dun 1 2 wait anymore...
So i go into Sg Buloh Hospital n get a checking for H1N1....
haiz so worry bout it cos i gt many symptons....
high fever, cough, flu, breathing difficulties, diarrhoe.... (sounds serious rite)

i dono i shud feel happy o sad, bcos the doctor there say i do not have fever.....
(act tat time i was wearing track bottom with long sleeve t-shirt, keep shivering and my face n ears r so red)
So she say i looks healthy so she suggest not 2 give me tamiflu (medicine 2 cure viral infection, e.g H1N1) and ask me 2 rest bcos my natural immunity will fight against the viral infection soon...
and a self quarantine at home for 5 days..... (pity)
So izit i infected with a minor H1N1 virus? nobody noes......
but my story doesnt end....

Just after i went back home from hospital, i measure again my body temperature n it still remains 39!
Izit the thermometer at hospital, or my home use thermometer not accurate?
hmm at tat time i dono, cos i really not feeling well at tat time...

Until 2day, i measure again my body temperature, it finally drops to 36.8~~~~
finally normal back.... So i think my house thermometer do not have any problem.....
tats y now i get back my energy n continue blogging....
will c 2nite izit my fever goes back... hope not.....

Anyway thanks 4 everyone care about me....
Thanks a lot....

Study, Give Up?!

2009-08-03T20:10:00.004+08:00

Recently i on9 much compare 2 my L6 year...
although it is not a gud sign, but i'll try 2 control and manage my time on studies....

hmm although now i m just taking 4 subject, but wat i hav 2 cover is few times more than my SPM...

starts with my math...
last time i was so confident with math until i no nid prepare 4 any exam...
hmm i didnt mean 2 'chuan' o wat.... but now i m totally lost.... covered with a lot of mist....
until now, my confident towards math is fell drastically....
i dono izit i deserved for an A.... since i m too lazy 2 do hw...
i noe A is for hardworking student, but not me.

how bout others?
hmm chemistry le?
its worse..... i really dono y i 'waste' a lot of time 2 study n understanding chem, but i get nothing...
i m just reading d book again n again, but when facing exercise n question..
i can simply laugh at there bcos i m blur even which chap it from i oso dono....
so y not goin tuition? its too late 2 me....

haiz biology act is ok 4 me....
but when i refer 2 d statistic of last year, our skul had onli 2 students get an A for their bio...
wat?! 2 students onli?! yes u r not seeing c wrong thing...
n i know i m not d 1 among d 2...
nothing much 2 say.... just read as much as i could....

n last General Paper (Pengajian Am).
haiz....
the onli word i can say bout it....
since i enter F6, i nvr read it at al, n just blank entering examination hall...
cos i really manage most of my study time on other subject....
so how? i oso dono how.....

haiz i m so tired of hearing ppl say wah u no worry cos ur result is better than us...
BULLSHIT... i noe my situation now... no nid tell me how gud m i...
cos i nvr gud b4....

like wat thomas edison said: succees comes from 99% of effort and 1% of luck....
no matter wat, v must put our heart n mind n soul n spirit when doin anything...
Good Luck everyone!

I dont wanna fight

2009-08-02T21:19:00.002+08:00

hmm just bcos yesterday bought a new dvd player...
my bro wanna try its function properly and in coincidence...
v listen to Westlife CD (Original track)....

dono y when i listen 2 1 of d songs... i fee like i m in tat situation....
Westlife- Moments

if i die tonight, id go with no regrets
if its in your arms i know that
i was blessed
and if your eyes are the last
thing that i see
then i know the beauty heaven
holds for me

but if i make it through, if i live to
see the day
if im with you, i'll know just what to say
the truth be told, girl you take my
breath away
every minute, every hour, every day

cause every moment we share together
is even better than the moment before
if every day was as good as today was
then i cant wait until tomorrow comes

a moment in time is all that's given
you and me
a moment in time, and its something
you should seize
so i won't make the mistake of
letting go
everyday you're here i'm gonna let
you know

that every moment we share together
is even better than the moment before
if every day was as good as today was
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes

each morning that i get up, i love you more
than ever
so girl i'll never go away, never stray

so every moment we share together
is even better than than the moment before

if every day was as good as today was
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes

so every moment we share together
is even better than the moment before
if every day was as good as today was
then i cant wait until tomorrow comes

i love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
moments we share together
i love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
i pray they last forever

i love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
moments we share together
i love, love, love the moments (oh yeah)
i pray they last forever now

hmm of course, the 'YOU' inside the song of course is nt a gal...
but is everything everyone accompany me.........

i had nothing 2 say much....
but just keep listen to Westlife song's....

Weight gain of 5kg!

2009-08-01T21:37:00.008+08:00

haha 2day i think i sure gain a lot of weight...
so just starts from monring.... i wake up at 630am cos preparing 2 go 2 tuition....
hmm so i had my 'loh mee' as my breakfast... haha so long time din eat....
so after i reach my tuition centre, i found tat act my class has been cancelled....
OMG i m so pity...... just bcos i have another tuition at 1045....
i plan to do something to pass the time (tat time was just 830)...
hmm so i just hanging around with my frens.... and later on meet up another 2 fren....
hmm just bcos i m too boring... i had my 2nd breakfast in 10am....
haha 'wai sek' rite?
hmm 1 plate of fried carrot cake is enough 2 satiate my gastronomical needs...

walao? no way cos tis is just my starting.....

hmm after my tuition at 1230, i straight away go 2 Cineleisure with my bro...
so its time 2 lunch (eat again) haha...

hmm v pick a place so called Sutra-The Sanctuary, which is a fusion of Sanskrit n Thai food at The Curve...
hmm me n my bro order set lunch which includes of Som tam, Spicy seafood tom yam, crispy buttered tiger prawn, and young asparagus, which just cost RM29.98 nett.

hmm i like d environment, but d food is just normal.....

haha so after tat me n my bro go 2 watch Harry Potter-The Half Blood Prince....
hmm tat movie was so long, with no climax at all.... b4 i really get into the scene, the movie is just end. so i would hav a rating of 3 out of 5....
Y i rate 3? it is not interesting... no comment anymore...

haiz after hanging around till 7pm, v decided join my sis 2 hav dinner...

haha once again i m eating...
hmm v go 2 Manjalara, a chinese restaurant, order 1kg of butter crab, sizzling squid, shrimp past freid chicken wings and a vege....
hmm so soli tat i din take d pic of it...
but wow it was so nice...... yummy....
haha

so fast i had been goin out from 7am till 930pm onli reach back home....
if i din get fatter n fatter of tis kind of eating lifestyle, i think sun arise from west bah...

well anyway, enjoy ur saturday!!!

**especially 4 yy
i eat a lot 2day, bcome fei zai liao...
haha short but meaningful...

I m older now!

2009-07-31T19:21:00.003+08:00

So, its true i m older start from 2day.....
me and all my frens finally can shout out....
v finally had let go d club and pass it to d next batch....
n now just like tat, our 1 year had been wasted~~~

v dono our desicion gud or bad?!
different ppl have different point of view....
so as different ppl have different scope of view...
pity those whose eyes r shaded by greed....
wat u scolding is just scolding back to urself....
it doesnt affect any1's life, it just shown how's ur own personality...
wat a shame!
tats y i nvr scold any1, cos wat 4 i nid 2 get angry just bcos of 'tat' kind of ppl?
if u think ppl have misconception 2 u, just bcos u use back d same attitude 2 others...

think wisely, is it u r small-hearted? o wat chinese phrase said：以小人之腹妒君子的心
meaning: just bcos u r tat kind of person tats y u feel ppl treat u badly....
as a layman, try 2 thank god wat u have now and please dun complaint.
'i have complaint to god that i had no shoes until i saw people with no feet'
just satisfy wat u have n keep it go....

hmm watever whoever whenever c my post...
u like o u hate, it just ur impression.....
remember whenever u r facing any1, try 2 c their eyeball, cos u r just reflecting ur attitude and ur level of civilisation in front of he/her...
no matter wat, i still happily goes on with my life~~~~

***especially for yy (sysnopsis 4 u)
happy with your life
开心也要过日子，不开心也要过日子，不如开心的过每一天。

A tired day~~~~

2009-07-30T20:06:00.003+08:00

hmm 2day my day was so meaningful..... packed with activities n activities.....
after my fren left me in the pengguna activity, i was like a dog follower keep follow teacher run everywhere just 2 c d progression of the whole activity....
hmm but thanks 2 Simone 4 helping me getting d sign 4 gerko card....
dono y after tat i find my math teacher and just chatting there for an hour (weird huh?!).....
haha chatting n laughing..... like wat i normally done with my teacher....
hmm a funny, kind teacher n a loving mother....
anyway thanks my 'mama' 4 caring my situation, although i admit i m a bit lazy in some aspects...
I promise i wont disappoint u cos u nvr give up me~~~
hmm lets continue den....
so after tat i went back home, rushing 2 bathroom take a lighting bath and start my tuition class....
paiseh le cos i eating my rice while i was teaching.... (hmm bad ho)
hmm so fast it was 6pm edi....
i fall asleep when i was reading newspaper.... ya its was sooo tired...
but anyway i still 1 2 blogging cos as wat my fren said....
left a memory 4 me, n starts it from now.....

haiz until here i was so miss my secondary skul frens~~~~
in there, v r just innocent....
talk watever v like, scold with our feel, n get bek fren after 1 second.....
whenever viewing d photos with my fren, my sweet memories just restore back from d remotest part of my mind....
d style of crazy-ness, 38-ness, n d way v talk.....
i was just miss them so much.....

but anyway i hav realised my life is changed a lot, although physically it doesnt...
i feel like 4 tis moment, my fren is my fren jus bcos they hav 2 b my fren....
it is temporary, n after tis year, i really cant imagine how many will keep continue contact with each other......
i hav experienced it for my primary frens....
even though last time v r so fren, but at last....
v r just strangers 2 each other.... i think will contact back when any1 of them bcome an insurans sales.

well i do appreciate my fren al d time, d gain n lost v faced n solved.....

My first blog

2009-07-29T21:23:00.000+08:00

hmm 1st time i m writing blog le
b4 tat i thought writing blog is a waste of time, until i realise act i can express my feeling to the world, to my dear frens....

y i'll blogging? hmm mayb c frens like 2 blog, so just follow d wind ba....
haiz dono y i m so free can everyday on9, until my frens al say can c me on9 at anytime...
act i oso can feel tat, but i really cant controll myself from on9...
doin wat during on9? haha nothing. i can just sit in front of my com desk and waiting c any1 on9 can chat with me...
my life too boring le ba...
not go skul go tuition jiu hide in home, either in computer room or my bedroom~~~
cos these 2 place hav computer.... swt y i keep on9-ing?
i really 1 2 get rid on it, but it just continously without realising i m wasting too much of time....
can any1 borrow me some time? i wish i have 48 hours in a day.....
help me please, cos i dun 1 my life is sooooo grey....
y my life so grey? hmm talk next time bah cos i noe if i 1 2 say bout my life?
its too long 2 say....
full of sadness, disappointment and unsatisfactory~~~~~
but anyway back to d topic.....
yyyyy i m so addicted 2 internet?
i dun 1 b a rubbish lo.... although i start feeling i hav d shadow of rubbish....
hmm just like wat i quote in msn, i really dun 1 b a normal ppl, i wanna interesting and excitement as well as achievement in my life.... (greedy huh?!)
but haha when talk bout d word achievement i really think bout my fren in skul....
v r just wonder d word achieve is pronouns as 'a-chief' or 'a-kai'? haha swt....
i really dun bother it..... just throw my muet books, as far as i could, just like throwing my tension away.....

hmm tis is my style. grey world of me. even can feel it from my 1st post.....
i m not pesimistic, i m just reality...
mayb i really just b myself~~~~~~